So I have cancer - 2

Have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow. When they did the diagnostic MRI, I now apparently have cancer in my right breast. That's not what I'm reading in the notes, but IANAD.

I've been feeling really depressed. Don't want to do anything. Overeating and then not eating. When I do something it's not giving me joy. Somewhat teary every once in a while. Glad my video visit with the doc is tomorrow morning.

I want to review my meds and maybe try one month of the magical weight loss drug before surgery and medications that make me gain weight. They all make me gain weight. What's the point.

So I have cancer

Not a good beginning to the year. My Aunt died of breast cancer in early May. A card playing friend has breast cancer. My BFF's niece has colon cancer and it's seems pretty bad. She's very young, in her 20's, and has toddlers. She's getting the whole radiation/chemo for the foreseeable future.

In late March had a regular old mammogram. There were apparently some calcifications to they ordered a biopsy to snip some of those out and take a closer look. In April had the biopsy and it's cancer. It's apparently a very slow growing type.

I have appointments with the surgical oncologist and the medical oncologist late in June unless they can get me in sooner. Not fun at all. Even though it seems like a best case scenario for a cancer diagnosis my sense of stability is lower. I got a call yesterday to schedule the appointments and I've been pretty sad ever since. Didn't even remotely put the saddle on correctly, including a curled under part. Just wasn't focusing.

I'm going to schedule an appointment with Dr. Sharma to maybe up my depression meds. And maybe a session with my therapist? Or maybe just sit with this for a bit.

Estrogen Receptor (SP1)	Positive (95%, 2+ staining intensity)
Progesterone Receptor	Positive (95%, 2+ staining intensity)
Androgen Receptor	Positive (95%, 3+ staining intensity)
HER2 Herceptest IHC	Negative, 1+
Ki-67	Low Proliferation Rate (2-3%)
HER2 FISH	(Pending, to be reported under Human Genomics result tab, separately)
E-cadherin	Negative in invasive lobular carcinoma, LCIS and ALH.